I write more when I am down. But this is rock bottom. Hence, here I am writing not just to feel better but also to help someone out there, if there is someone who is going through the same thing as I am.

Yes! you guessed it right! A heartbreak, A break-up! That’s what I am here to write about, To write about something that’s mundane and trivial to most. But an excruciatingly painful affair for a person who is going through it. Believe me. I understand you. How the time just slows down and everything around you is moving at sloth speed, how your mouth becomes dry as if you are in a desert, how your heart starts pounding faster and faster, as if you are on a train track and you are directly looking at the train that’s about to collide and take you into afterlife in a second. You know what’s coming your way, Or may be it comes as a surprise. May be you are prepared may be you are not. Doesn’t matter, It hits you like a thunderbolt. You feel like some one is trying to pull your soul out of your body. I get it. Every bit of it. I am not talking from a place where I have moved on and don’t think about it anymore. Or trying to help you from the so called “Personal experience” of the past. I am saying all of this because my wound is fresh. Perhaps yours is too. I had my Break-up last night.

I don’t know if nights are the worst or the days. At night you can’t sleep because you are left alone with your thoughts. You think of the possible things you could have said and done to make it all work out. All the good memories transforms into nightmares. You keep tossing and turning on your bed hopefully trying to pick the perfect spot to fall asleep. But it all fails. It’s as if she took that perfect spot with her when she left. Then comes the dreaded mornings where you now have to pretend to everyone that you are okay, try really hard to keep that straight face. All the while you feel like there is an anchor tied to your chest that’s pulling you down into the ground.

This is my first day after the break up. If anyone is reading this and is in the same boat. Hang in their. I understand if you don’t want to, I feel the same way, But what if something amazing happens tomorrow, like you get the dream job that you have been waiting for to hear from, or you get a gig of your life time. Would you want to miss that? Or just like I asked my ex-girlfriend, Let’s give it another shot! Give life another shot. Lets see what happens. I am with you friend.